I’ve been thinking about life and every time I think I have it figured out life throws me huge curve balls. I never planned to get married or leave the life that I was living, not that I have regret for the choices that I made, just mourning the life that I thought I would have. I figured by now I would know what I wanted in life, have kids, raising my own family, be finished with college. Or just the opposite, still be using drugs, out partying every nite, having the best time of my life, but no, I’m stuck in the middle I’m not graduated, I don’t have kids, I never get to go out….. I’m stuck and I seem to be hating every minute of it and there is really nothing I can do, all the crazy things I have wanted to do in my life now I will most likely not have a chance to do them now, I thought I had all my life to be adventurous and try new things…. What if I hadn’t moved here, hadn’t made the decisions that I did life would be so much different.