"There are still many more days of failure ahead, whole seasons of failure, things will go terribly wrong, you will have huge disappointments, but you have to prepare for that, you have to expect it and be resolute and follow your own path."
- Anton Chekhov (via childrenofthetao)
This seems to be the constant in my life, no matter where I am or where I go or what is going on, this is what seems to be the reoccurring things in my life no matter how hard I try to move away from it. I can pray and follow after the lord but it always seems to just show up back in my life at some point.

This seems to be the constant in my life, no matter where I am or where I go or what is going on, this is what seems to be the reoccurring things in my life no matter how hard I try to move away from it. I can pray and follow after the lord but it always seems to just show up back in my life at some point.

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I thought I saw a spark of hope, that it isn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be, but I was wrong… Can’t decide do I get a second job and just work myself to death or do I just kill myself?

I thought I saw a spark of hope, that it isn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be, but I was wrong… Can’t decide do I get a second job and just work myself to death or do I just kill myself?

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My Baby

Though I shall never see you smile,
Never hear your laugh,
I won’t get to hold your hand,
Or pack your bag to school,
I’ll always be your mother,
Be you alive dead or between,
I will always be your mother,
And my child you shall be.

I’ll never watch your first step,
Nor heard your first word,
These things will never happen,
In this opportunistic world,
I will always be your mother,
Be you alive dead or between
I will always be your mother,
And my child you’ll always be.

If I could I would keep you with me,
I’d raise you till your strong,
I’d bring into this world,
And help you carry,
I will always be your mother,
Whether you are born or not,
I will always be your mother,
and will always love you lots.

Your mommy really loves you,
And wants to see you grow,
But the time just isn’t right yet,
So I have to let you go,
I will always be your mother,
Whether you’re born or not,
I shall always be your mother,
And will always love you lots.

Don’t you think that I’ll forget you,
You’re still my little tot,
You haven’t graced this world
But still mine are you not?
I will always be your mother,
And I’ll raise you in my mind,
I will always be your mother,
And in my heart you shine.

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